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Matt and I hit our little over a year mark since we have been on and off, but we have been officially together for 10 months.. just insanity! He is finally getting out of the marines in 2 months, we are going to celebrate by taking a roadtrip up and down the east coast, since out Europe trip was canceled.
The spring semester is finally coming to a close, just 6 more weeks and I am going to be done with all these business classes. Sadly I will be taken off the Dean's List because instead of getting straight A's I will probably be getting B/B+'s :( I cannot wait until I am finally done with school, even though that means I have two years of being a resident intern I don't care just as long as I am done with all this nonsense.
The babies are doing well Caligula is turning 1 in a month, Simon just hit 3 in February, and Paul is turning 2 this month. I don't know what we are going to do about what animals we are keeping when we move. Matt doesn't want Paul or Caligula but I am not sure if I will be able to separate from them in a year. Paul seems happier lately and Caligula... well he is just an asshole and that will probably never change. I guess its something we will have to sit down and talk about when we are getting ready to move... ugh the thought of driving to California with a dog, cat and bunny for 2 days sounds... terrible.
Andrzej and I are back to talking just about everyday, he truly is one of the funniest guys I have ever met. It bums me out I haven't physically seen him in months, one because he has my favorite books and two he is just a good conversation. We make jokes about what he should do for a career so he can spend his off time writing. My current favorite is him being a model by day writer by night, with me as his secretary. His favorite is him being my manretary while I instead of being just a mortician get people to sign their bodies over to be before they die and then create art from their body parts. And we would travel the world with my human body part art, he said I will instantly be a hit because it will be sooo controversial and then we will both be rich!
Not a bad idea if I say so myself ;)
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:( my stomach is crap, this is the 7th day of total nausea. yesterday started a new awesome symptom dizziness and THEN throwing up! awesome!
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[06 Jan 2009|08:55am] |
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I know it has been a while since I posted anything on here, and I don't really feel like filling in too many of the gaps... but here are a few.
I ended whatever it was with Michael and I and decided that Matt was worth alittle of the aggravation he causes :P . This is of course when Michael "suddenly" realizes that he is in love with me and wants to get married and have my children! Two things that when we were actually dating he said he would never want. So Michael has been going to great lengths to try to win me back, even though there is no way that will happen. Everything with Matt is going soo well,I love that Polock so much. Technically I have been in love with him since.... last January (08) so who knows how long we have been together. I just say we are on our 4 or 5th month :) His mother and I are getting pretty close, I talk to her if not everyday then every other day. She sends me cute little messages on Facebook or myspace counting down the days til I get to meet her.
... Which we are at 3 nights :) I cant wait for 60 degree weather, and all those museums and to see TORPEDO WIGGINS!! Matt called me last night to ask if I would like to go to Universal Studios... who says no to that?! So on Saturday Matt, his Sergeant, his wife and I are all going to Universal Studios. Hopefully we will get to see Patrick as well... but Matts Bronco has been acting up so I dont think we would be able to drive all the way to see him =/ Oh well we will figure it out. His mother wants us over there for a bit, she is making a cake and trying to find recipes that ... have no meat.. something they are not used to
This is gonna be the longest I will be away from Hippohead... It is killing me, its like he knows too, he hasn't left my side I hate the fact I have to leave him here. I wish he could come :( But I guess this is a test run for when Matt and I go to Europe for a month.. ugh is going to be so difficult. Luckily Hailey will be housesitting so he will have constant attention, I just dont want to leave him. Matt and I are planning a trip to Montreal Feb 2010 to see my family who is flying up from Fiji. When it gets closer to that time, I am going to see about taking Simon with us, there are plenty of dog friendly hotels.. meh who knows
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[17 Nov 2008|10:01am] |
Well Its been a long time since an update, but I am not really feeling typing out everything that has happened. But what is affecting me right now... Matt is at Bastion, the FOB in afghanistan which means I wont be able to talk to him until he gets home. It is driving me insane, mainly we made it official that we are together not just really good friends who secretly pine for each other. I have contact with his mother so we talk throughout the week keeping each other in the loop with whats going on. I will be flying out there in Jan to see the sexy Emily Torpedos, and to see Matt <3 <3 I cannot wait.
School is going well, alittle hectic right now since finals are just around the corner, I have all these insane papers due. Andrzej and I have started to talk alot again, which i am very happy about. I missed him. He might be coming up for Sigma Phi Sigma's Formal xmas party, which will be far too much fun.
I am moving this weekend, so if anyone wants to help :D
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[18 Sep 2008|08:11am] |
Not to much has really been going on with me, alot of school/stress, and loneliness. I get to talk to A a few times a day, and he isnt doing much better. School and money are stressin him out and now his new girlfriend is having major issues =/ Feel bad for him, he is on a different time set then I am, when I have early classes, he has none so he is calling me at 11/12 at night when i am making a desperate attempt at sleeping. Though he did try last night but the half of bottle of wine i had refused to let me get out of the comfortable spot on the bed.
Things have been going well with Michael and I.. still not sure what we are doing. A few months ago we said that we would be friends and only friends, that means no adult situations, no love talk, no "we" or "our" talk. And yet when i am down there its kissy kissy, sex sex, cuddle cuddle, then the love talk starts and... I dunno if it walks like a duck and quacks alike a duck its a fucking duck, but with us its ..."just friends" even though our family and friends know whats going on. Meh, I guess the label doesnt mean that much to me since everything is going so well, it sucks that we cant see each other very often but when we do its great.
School is going well, had my first test in Intro to Funeral Service yesterday.... it was so fucking easy. I hope i did well since a 75% is failing.
Well off to class... if anyone knows anyone who wants/needs a roommate in the Lehigh Valley area this Dec/Jan PLEASE PLEASE contact me. My lease is up then, and I desperately want to get out of this apartment, but I am unable to pay for all the other shit alone. k thanks
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[22 Aug 2008|12:06pm] |
Well life has been a tad odd lately, but i wouldnt want it any other way. Michael and I are still trying hard at being just friends... hopefully it works out. I havent spoken to Andrzej in a while and its a complete bummer. Matt offered to pay for the entire Europe trip! So I need to do something amazing for him, plan a surprise side trip while we are in Germany maybe? ... I dunno I need to do something though.
Other then that School starts on monday, and I cant say i am ready for it =/
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[25 Jul 2008|06:24pm] |
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i just got offered a job at a funeral home XD
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This is what i get for fostering kittens, they come into my home with flees... now my entire house is infested. No matter what I do I cant get rid of them... and I cant bomb the house until i get the frogs to their new home, and I dont even know what I am gonna do with my bunny.
The fucking shelter wont get back to be about getting them neutered so I can get them the fuck out of my house. I keep putting money into their food, flee treatments for all the animals, litter.. and I havent gone food shopping in ages. I just cant afford anything lately.
I went to stay with A for the week cause I am about to crack.. and he started to lose it too. They are putting him on new meds so hopefully that will help his depression and then he can help me stabilize. I just want my house to be nice and clean without all these insect issues, I want all the animals out of my house other then Simon and Caligula and Mr Meagee... but I want all the others fucking OUT.
Matt seems to be giving me the cold shoulder with all that is happening with A... I just dont know what to do with it all. He constantly tells me that he wants me to be happy and keeps telling me I should date this person, date that person. But then he tells me how jealous he is when i say I was with A... or hanging out with other guys even if there is nothing there. Tells me that we are good friends, but then we are planning a trip to Europe. Talking to me like we are together again.... he is sending me a scarf from afghanistan..... i havent even sent his bday present yet.
A and I are not gonna last... technically we arent even dating just friends who have adult situations cause we are too lonely and socially awkward to have it any other way.
I cant figure out if i would rather just be alone without the drama from Matt or A... or if I would like them to stay in my life even though they drive me slightly insane.
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So I got used to sleeping with another again (excluding Hippohead), so now I cant sleep. Which sucks cause all I wanted was a nice restful sleep last night since I have been so cranky lately.
Today is 4th of July which means I am driving down to Clinton St for the blockparty breakfast. Where Fiona and I are forced to look at embarrassing photos of us when we were kids (since this has been going on every year since before we were born).
Maybe I will sleep well tonight? Maybe I will stop being so mean and cranky? Maybe I will start answering my phone....
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This weekend was a mix of suck, and awesome... So I am left slightly numb about it
Toward the end of the week I felt like shit, I was getting sick of those around me... I am just being a mental case.
So I had lunch with Vanessa for her birthday, then drove in hellish weather to Andrzej's house.We had a fantastic time, just a drunken sexy time blur of a weekend with a bit of delicious dinner that A made.
It was a massive bummer leaving today, with a beautiful Pollack asking me to stay, and to find out half way home that the only reason I was leaving was canceled. But He gave me a book called Notes from Underground, and the movie Akira, both of which I plan on starting today.
This weekend will consist of Business Law, possible food shopping, then driving back down to the DC/MD area for the weekend... and if I end up seeing Mr. again, who knows how much longer I will end up staying.
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This week should be pretty awesome, its my last week of chem (thank christ) its pretty much study study study, then friday I am going to see Dethklok with Jen and Gene. Then from the concert I am driving straight down to spend a long weekend with Andrzej :). We were shooting back and forth talk of camping, but he is adopting one of the kittens so I think it is going to be a weekend of silly Andrzej & Cara chaos aka we will be in bed all day watching movies and cuddling with the kitten and Simon.
He is slowly teaching me french... I haven't absorbed a thing.. but fuck is it hot to hear him speak...
An adorable photo of Andrzej and Simon
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So I cant tell if I now have a wicked cold, or wicked allergies... either way THEY SUCK. My throat has been killing me since Tuesday, and this morning I woke up with a cough and itchy nose.
I am gonna say its probably allergies since I was working on the yard late last weekend, and rustled up some more shit on Tuesday when I got the trash.
The kittens are doing well, figured out how to escape the bathroom, luckily for me all the animals get along well so I dont have to worry. Juno keeps an eye on Simon to make sure he isnt playing too rough with the babies.
Well I am off for a grand test in Organic Chem... this is my second to last test, and I couldnt be happier.
Have a good day everyone
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Friday:
-Andrzej came up
-Jen, Andrzej and I went and saw the Heartbreakers
-Went to Zach's party
Saturday:
-Andrzej and I lay about in bed watching movies all day
-Took Simon out for a few walks
-Took Simon to the Petstore to get supplies for the pets
-Continued to lay about in bed
Sunday:
-Got foster kittens!
-Mother-Juno (got knocked up young)
-Ademonson Hitler
-Kisses
-Mouth
-Jean
-Jowles
-Andrzej went home :(
There is the short version of a kickass weekend, I really needed it. I finally got a good night sleep, had an excuse to be in bed all day. And then we played with kittens all day... I am happy
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[04 Jun 2008|05:15pm] |
Finishing up Matt's birthday package, just have to get him the books, and burn the cds for him. I really like the fact I can talk to him everyday now, I am not such mental wreck because of it.
Let me tell you how much I hate organic and biochemistry, I have yet another test tomorrow. My teacher went on how we have covered in the 3 weeks of class what he normally would cover in 6 weeks. My eyes are sore, my brain is moosh, and my hand is cramping from all the writing. Luckily I bought some new records yesterday, and nothing gets me going to study like a "fresh" GG Allin record.
Someone want to help me revamp my backyard? I will pay you in beer, food and sas-talk and I promise you it will be totally worth it :)
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[02 Jun 2008|04:17pm] |
There are times where I don't realize how much Matt's support means to me, today's mess was not one of those times. He was there the exact time I felt like a total asshole and said everything I needed to hear.
MZ you are fantastic
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[12 May 2008|09:15am] |
Marc's and my trip to Williamsburg was soo much fun, we both needed to get out and spend alittle time together. We have both been in shitty moods, and what better remedy then your best friend? The drive there and back.... really sucked especially since I drove the whole time. Usually on our road trips he is driving, and we have his car. But since his little convertible is no more... we had to take the doctor.
here are some photos from the trip.. some of the best i left in the car, cause I am an idiot.
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[06 May 2008|04:18pm] |
got four more stitches today... right on the ol' neck and fuck do they hurt now
Its right at the crease of my jawline so everytime i speak it hurts... or breath... or turn my head... what a shitty spot to get stitches.
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